my last message.

assalamualaikum amanda nurshafeena ;

amanda, if you read this. maknenye ilham dh xad dalam dunia yg fana ni. maafkan ilham, tetapi ilham terpakse tinggalkan manda. manda jgn sedih ye? ilham sentiase ade dlm hati manda, now and forever. please dont shed a tear. manda kne teruskn khidupan manda. manda kne blajar elok2. supaye nnt manda dpt kecapi ap yg manda impikn selama ni. ilham dah tak larat nak menanggung kesakitan ini. sudah tiba masa nye utk ilham PERGI. manda sentiasa lah doakan ilham ye? jgn tinggalkn solat. ingat pesan ilham. ilham thu manda kuat utk mnghadapi cubaan ini. sekali lgi ciuman terakhir manda, akan ilham semadikn dlm jiwa reamja kita. ilham harap akan jmpe manda 1 hari nanti. Insyallah. amin. seperti yang ilham harapkan, manda kne tabah. jage umi n ayah elok2. manda lah harapan dorg utk berjaya skrg. ilham ade suruh umi n ayah letak nme manda dlm wasiat keluarga kita. maaf manda, tpi manda telah mnunjukkn sinar kebahagiaan dlm keluarga kami. sekurang2 nya ilham dpt mlakukn sesuatu utk manda. ilham tau yg manda taknak kn ni sume. tpi manda, maafkn ilham sekali lgi. tlg jgn mara, tlg jgn menolak. ilham beri secara ikhlas. manda terimalah dgn hati yg terbuka.

sekali lagi pesanan terakhir dari ilham buat manda, sabarlah menghadapi kehilangan buat kali ini sayangku. ilham tak sanggup lihat manda nangis. ilham tak sanggup rase air mata hangat manda kt bahu ilham. ilham percaye, akn ad seseorg yg akan mnjadi bahu yg terbaik buat manda. manda jgn risau lah ye? ilham yakin. ilham nak mintak maaf manda, coz ilham tuka password blogger manda ni. maaf sgt2. ilham taknak manda sedih. so dgn cre ini lah ilham rse ilham dpt kurgkn sedih manda. semakin hari, ajal ilham semakin dekat. kini tibalah masa untuk ilham kembali padaNya. salam sayang dari ilham. Asyhaduala illahailallah. waasyhaduanna muhammadanrasulullah. Amin. selamat tinggal amanda nurshafeena.

dari seorang lelaki di katil 3, wad ICU Hospital Swasta Shah Alam. 

- Muhamad Ilham Zariq bin Dato' Yunus Zakaria -

im very happy. :)

last saturday and snday. she actually came here! in this hospital! trima kasih umi. terima kasih manda. ilham bahagia sgt2 bila manda dtg jenguk ilham. drpd cara manda pgg tgn ilham. tggu ilham. ilham berterima kasih sgt. walaupun ilham x ckap ape2, manda setia tggu kt stu. jge ilham. ilham hnye mampu senyum. last day, ilham agk sedih bile manda kne pergi. tpi ilham thu manda nk blaja kn? manda, ilham x bleh brtahan dh. ilhan akn pergi tak lme lgi. doakan ilham semoga sejahtera di alam SANA. Amin. manda bertahan lah yerk. sabar menghadapi dugaan ini. ilham tak mungkin lupekn kenangan kte bsme. gmbr2 kite, biarlah umi ilham simpan yerk. supaaye umi akn sntiase ingt kt ilhan n manda. maafkan manda. ilham benar2 sakit. salam selamat tinggal. ilham terlalu kasihkn manda. samoga kita berjumpa lagi. Amin ya rabbal Alamin.

sahabatmu : Muhamad Ilham Zariq bin D. Yunus Zakaria

how i wish.

i wish we had another time, i wish we had another place. coz everything we had is stuck in the moment, and theres nothing my heart can do, to fight with time and space coz im still stuck in the moment with you. -justin bieber - stuck in the moment -

manda, ilham khas kn lgu ni utk manda. ilham suke akn lgu ni. ilham hrap manda leh trime pmergian ilham. ilham thu mgkin susah bt manda lpaskn ilham. tpi jgnlah manda sedeh. ilham sntiase ade dlm hati manda. ilham taknak umi nangis, ilham taknak ayah stress. tlg jaga umi ngan ayah ilham elok2. ilham na ckp, ble manda dpt pggilan telefon drpd doktor yg mngatakan bhwa ilham dah xde. maafkan ilham ea manda. ilham pun xnk tinggalkn manda. tpi ilham dh tak larat. maafkan ilham. ilham sygkn manda sangat2. tpi ilham thu, ilham cme leh jdi kwan terbaik buat manda. ilham thu, manda tlalu kasihkn amzar. ilham mengaku yg ilham mmg cemburu thdp manda ngn amzar. tpi jauh dlm sudut hati ilham, ilham gembire. sbb ilham thu yg amzar boleh bhgiekn hati manda. kalo ilham silap. maafkan ilham lgi sekali. dan seperti yg manda pnah dngar, ilham dh nyanyi kn lgu ni utk manda dlu kn? manda klihtan sgguh gembire. and manda pun thu kn? skrg ni ilham terlantar dlm hospital, kne than wad. manda doakan lah banyak2 buat ilham ea? supaye raye nnt ilham dpt tgok manda senyum. :) amin ya rabbal alamin. 

dari : muhamad ilham zariq bin yunus zakaria.

sejak perkenalan kita

amanda, ilham nak ingt blek mse first time kita bjmpe. mse tu funny sgt. it was the day that i will remember forever. yeah i still remember, when you came to my school, you were alone, with no frens around you, you felt awkward n yes i understand. then i realise that i have to do something to get your attention. while you were out to see Sir Ming, i purposely put a rose inside your desk. so that when you open it to get your book, u'll find yourself a secret admirer. yes, i notice that you were a little bit different fron other girls there. you're quite shy. n guess wat? the most strangest thing that happen in my front of my eyes! i thought that when you saw the flower, you will smile. but my guess is wrong. u threw it away? why? why did you do that? i neva think of somting like dat would hppen. ure really strange. and during recess, i knew it when i saw the frightened look in your face. u left your purse at the dorm right? its okay, i treat you. you look so happy when you get to eat that spaghetti. i know you liked it. :) and i do anything to make you happy. because now youre my best friend. and thats the way it reamins forever.

ilikeyou : muhamad ilham zariq bin yunus zakaria

its getting worse. ( ! ) :'(

amanda, maafkan ilham. ilham rse ilham x mmpu nk truskn berthan lgi. maaf. ilham akn cbe jgak utk bertahan. terima kasih manda sbub jage ilham slame ni. and maaf sbub buad manda break dgn junaidi. ilham thu manda break ngn dye bkn sbub amzar kn? sbb manda nk jge ilham. n ilham thu manda, ilham da tgok mke junaidi tu. adelah sikit sme wjah kmi. maaf sbub wat manda risau. tpi ilham trpakse pergi manda. mcm dokter ckap kn? cell kanser ni mrebak dgn cepat. and tempoh ilham pun lebih kurang 2 minggu je.ilham sgt syang kan manda. maafkan ilham. manda doakan lah ilham sejahtera di alam sana ye?

ilham sayang kan manda. muhamad ilham zariq bin dato yunus zakaria

its coming near.

yeahh. my death is coming nearer my friend. amanda, i hope you'll be strong like i told you to. if you miss me, just put your hand to your heart. close your eyes. n you'll hear my voice singing to you. i do adore you amanda. i remember when i look at you, you blushed redly. thats the time i cherished the most. if you read this. dont shed your tear. smile for me. for i have found my serenity in you. thank you amanda nurshafeena. i really appreciate our friendship. day by day, even though im getting worst. but you always there, dont care bout yourself. n sits besides my weak body. holds my hand. n begging for me to wake up. n when i do, you smile like theres a hope for me. i'll miss that. pray for me when im gone. u may forget me if you want to. but me? forgetting you? its impossible. i know. 


iloveyou : muhamad ilham zariq

from the heart core of muhamad ilham zariq

amanda, ni zariq, if amanda bce blog ni, amanda x perlu risau k? sye ade kt sisi awak all the time. lagi 3 minggu kn? saye akn cbe berthan utk mncapai lebih drpd 3 mggu tu.